{"id":3477,"date":"2012-11-24T18:39:36","date_gmt":"2012-11-25T00:39:36","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/19.org\/?p=3477"},"modified":"2014-02-10T18:26:07","modified_gmt":"2014-02-11T00:26:07","slug":"korku","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/19.org\/tr\/korku\/","title":{"rendered":"Kapkara bir Korku"},"content":{"rendered":"

Kapkara Bir Korku<\/strong><\/span><\/p>\n

Yasin \u00c7olak<\/p>\n

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–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Yine senin ard\u0131ndan gelmek istiyorum.<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 \u00d6\u011frendi\u011fini mi san\u0131yorsun? Bunu daha \u00f6nce de denemi\u015ftik! Bilmedi\u011fin \u015feyler oldu\u011funu g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015f ve \u00e7ok zorlanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131n. Hat\u0131rlam\u0131yor musun?<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Art\u0131k \u00f6\u011frendim sab\u0131rl\u0131 olmay\u0131 ve \u00e7ok soru sormamay\u0131.<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Tekrar m\u0131 ya\u015fayal\u0131m ayn\u0131 \u015feyleri?<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Bu sefer farkl\u0131 olacak, bak g\u00f6receksin. Art\u0131k seni tan\u0131yorum, soru sorulmas\u0131n\u0131 sevmedi\u011fini biliyorum.<\/p>\n

Beraber y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fcler… Bat\u0131rd\u0131klar\u0131 gemiyi g\u00f6rd\u00fcler suyun \u00fczerinde.<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Bu gemiyi hat\u0131rl\u0131yorsun\u2026 ben bat\u0131rm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m.<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 G\u00f6zlerimle g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm batt\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131. Nas\u0131l olur, yine suyun \u00fczerinde?<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 S\u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc tutmuyorsun.<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Ne olur k\u0131zma ama anlayam\u0131yorum. Bir \u015fans daha istiyorum. Yan\u0131nda kalay\u0131m, art\u0131k soru sormayaca\u011f\u0131m.<\/p>\n

Beraber y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fcler\u2026 \u00d6ld\u00fcrd\u00fckleri \u00e7ocu\u011fu g\u00f6rd\u00fcler.<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Bu \u00e7ocu\u011fu hat\u0131rl\u0131yorsun\u2026 ben \u00f6ld\u00fcrm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm.<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 G\u00f6zlerimle g\u00f6rm\u00fc\u015ft\u00fcm \u00f6ld\u00fcrd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcn\u00fc. Nas\u0131l olur dirilmi\u015f ve ya\u015f\u0131yor?<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Seni uyarm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Soru sormadan duram\u0131yorsun.<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Bir daha sorarsam, beni b\u0131rak\u0131p gidebilirsin.<\/p>\n

Beraber y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fcler\u2026 Tamir ettikleri duvar\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fcler.<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Bu duvar\u0131 hat\u0131rl\u0131yorsun\u2026 Ben yapm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m bunu.<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Evet\u2026 \u00e7ok sa\u011flamd\u0131. Kim y\u0131km\u0131\u015f?<\/p>\n

–\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0 Tamam\u2026 Art\u0131k bu seninle olan beraberli\u011fimizin sonudur. Hala vazge\u00e7memi\u015fsin soru sormaktan. \u015eimdi dinle;<\/p>\n

\u201c Gemiyi hep suyun alt\u0131nda tutmay\u0131 sa\u011flamakla y\u00fck\u00fcml\u00fc olanlar vard\u0131. Onlar y\u00fck\u00fcml\u00fcl\u00fcklerini yerine getiremediler. Geminin sahibi olan yoksul bal\u0131k\u00e7\u0131n\u0131n torunlar\u0131 da gemiyi batt\u0131\u011f\u0131 yerden \u00e7\u0131kard\u0131lar ve o geminin ta\u015f\u0131d\u0131\u011f\u0131 silahlarla masumlar\u0131 katlediyorlar \u015fimdi.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201c \u00c7ocu\u011fa gelince\u2026 O \u00e7ocu\u011fu diriltenler; \u00e7ocu\u011fun, ana babas\u0131na kar\u015f\u0131 zorba ve nank\u00f6r oldu\u011funu unutanlar. \u015eimdi o \u00e7ocuk, onlar\u0131n \u00e7ocuklar\u0131n\u0131 \u00f6ld\u00fcr\u00fcyor.\u201d<\/p>\n

\u201cBen duvar\u0131 tamir ettikten sonra, o duvar\u0131 korumas\u0131 gerekenler vard\u0131. Onlar, duvar\u0131 benden sonra kendi elleriyle y\u0131kt\u0131lar. Duvar\u0131n alt\u0131ndaki hazineyi kendi \u00e7\u0131karlar\u0131 i\u00e7in kulland\u0131lar. \u015eimdi o duvar kendi ba\u015flar\u0131na y\u0131k\u0131l\u0131yor.\u201d<\/p>\n

Yaln\u0131z ba\u015f\u0131na y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fc\u2026<\/p>\n

Asl\u0131nda yaln\u0131z y\u00fcr\u00fcmeyi sevmiyordu. Birlikte y\u00fcr\u00fcmek\u2026 hep birlikte y\u00fcr\u00fcmek\u2026 binlerce, onbinlerce, milyonlarca y\u00fcrek birlikte y\u00fcr\u00fcmeyi \u00e7ok \u00f6zlemi\u015fti. Soru sorulmadan, teslimiyetle ve inan\u00e7la y\u00fcr\u00fcmek istemi\u015fti. G\u00f6zya\u015flar\u0131, sokaklar\u0131 doldurmu\u015f \u015fehitlerin \u00fczerine d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcyordu. Yanm\u0131\u015f insan bedenleri\u2026 parampar\u00e7a olmu\u015f kad\u0131nlar\u2026 tanklar\u0131n alt\u0131nda ezilen \u00e7ocuklar\u2026 a\u011flama sesleri bomba seslerine kar\u0131\u015fan bebekler…<\/p>\n

Arkas\u0131na bakt\u0131\u2026 Az \u00f6nce terketti\u011fi yol arkada\u015f\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc. Arkada\u015f\u0131 yine yakalam\u0131\u015ft\u0131 \u00f6z karde\u015fini sakal\u0131ndan\u2026 ve karde\u015flerini\u2026 ve yine ayn\u0131 bahanenin ard\u0131na s\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131yordu karde\u015fleri; \u201cben yapmad\u0131m, o yapt\u0131\u2026 benim bir su\u00e7um yok\u201d diyordu. Asas\u0131n\u0131 yine vurdu denize, yine yar\u0131ld\u0131 deniz ama bu kez yaln\u0131z ge\u00e7iyordu denizden. D\u00fcn ard\u0131ndan gelenler, tek \u00e7e\u015fit yiyece\u011fe dayanamay\u0131p k\u00f6t\u00fc olan\u0131 iyi olana tercih etmi\u015fler ve d\u00fc\u015fman\u0131n saf\u0131nda yer tutmu\u015flard\u0131 \u00e7ok zamand\u0131r.<\/p>\n

Bedenlerini topra\u011fa tohum gibi ekenler ya\u015farken, sen \u00f6l\u00fcyorsun\u2026 ben \u00f6l\u00fcyorum\u2026 bir insanl\u0131k \u00f6l\u00fcyor. \u015eimdi orada \u00e7ocuklar\u0131m, \u00e7ocuklar\u0131m\u0131z cennete do\u011fru do\u011farken, biz burada \u00f6l\u00fcyoruz.<\/p>\n

Haydi\u2026 Sen de koy elini g\u00f6\u011fs\u00fcn\u00fcn \u00fczerine. Sonra \u00e7\u0131kart elini ve bak avu\u00e7lar\u0131na; kapkara bir korkunun izlerini g\u00f6receksin.<\/p>\n

Haydi\u2026 Cesaret edebilecek misin efendilerinden izin almadan O\u2019na teslim olmaya? Bak yutuyor y\u0131lanlar bebekleri, atabilecek misin asan\u0131 ortaya! Ellerini ve ayaklar\u0131n\u0131 \u00e7aprazmala uzatabilecek misin o masumlar\u0131n \u00fczerine ya\u011fan bombalara. Ben yapamad\u0131m… Biz yapamad\u0131k. Ve kalplerimizi s\u00f6kt\u00fcler\u2026 kalplerimizden kolyeler yapt\u0131lar. \u015eimdi y\u00fcreksiz ve kalpsiziz. Utanc\u0131ndan k\u0131pk\u0131rm\u0131z\u0131 kesilmi\u015f bo\u015f ve anlams\u0131z kelimeleriz hepimiz.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Beraber y\u00fcr\u00fcd\u00fcler… Bat\u0131rd\u0131klar\u0131 gemiyi g\u00f6rd\u00fcler suyun \u00fczerinde.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_acf_changed":false,"_monsterinsights_skip_tracking":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_active":false,"_monsterinsights_sitenote_note":"","_monsterinsights_sitenote_category":0,"footnotes":""},"categories":[1603,1229],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-3477","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-cesitli-yasin-colak","category-yasin-colak"],"acf":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/19.org\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3477","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/19.org\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/19.org\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/19.org\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/19.org\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=3477"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/19.org\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3477\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":6511,"href":"https:\/\/19.org\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/3477\/revisions\/6511"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/19.org\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=3477"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/19.org\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=3477"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/19.org\/tr\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=3477"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}